The insurance commercial that states, "Life comes at you fast," sure wasn't kidding! Last week, we found out that my MIL's lymphoma, which has been gone for 12 years, has returned with a vengance. On the same day, I got word that my back surgery was denied by my insurance because it's not medically necessary (What BS!!!). Of course I'm fighting it, but it was just one thing too many for me to deal with and I lost it emotionally. Thankfully, through MF, I learned that eating wouldn't solve my problems (duh, right?), so I was able to stay OP..

Yesterday, we got news that when my MIL went to her oncologist, they took one look at her and sent her straight to the hospital. We honestly thought that we were going to lose her yesterday, so I put my DH on the next plane to LV. I was (and am!) an emotional wreck, as I went through this 5 years ago when I lost my dad to cancer..

I am in a tough spot, because I'm now on medical leave, awaiting my surgeon's challenge to the insurance decision and my subsequent surgery date. I want to load the rest of the family up and go to Vegas to see my MIL, but I just don't know how I'm going to do that with my severe back pain..

Anyway, the point of this post (other than to solicit any prayers you can give), is to point out that the old Lisa would have gone off the rails yesterday and gorged on junk food when her mommy took her out to lunch. Instead, the new Medifast Lisa ordered grilled salmon and steamed veggies. It's been a real struggle to fight with my inner brat and to keep telling her that eating junk food will only make me feel crappy, and will not help my situation. I am so grateful to Medifast for providing the structure I need in my life right now while everything else feels like it's spinning out of control..

Thanks for listening to my ramble..